Ugly Truth Be Told

--whoever said Love begets forever suns was kidding alright

--what do i do with this heart refusing to die the easy way?

--pins of Hope i pull out of my chest as i sing your name tri-syllabic melodic catastrophic... the lifetimes pass by the minute and i had lost count

--it's only a matter of time before i convince myself that i hate you fiercely and irrevocably and to remain in your life like this is to despise the power and magic and logic of what i am meant to be

--i must not give in to that vulnerable voice inside asking whether you love me or not; i must smother that voice 'til it can cry no more

--how do i remain as your friend when my core is crumbling in pain which mere friendship could not heal?

--one more bridge to burn, one more Regret to live life by

--i do not know how long i can hold on to you

--the e-mails will stop; the poetry will run out; the void will awaken for so long

--the choices that we make no matter how messed up are the choices that define who we are and what we want to be

--i want to be: scarred soul resigned to Pain